Meat, mmm?

Ok, I started this thing for several reasons, one of which was to have a record of what I'm going through with this pregnancy. That's why I talked about the miscarriages. And that's why I'm going to post below. Stop reading now if you don't want to read anything gross.

Somehow I kinda doubt anyone stopped reading. Ok the topic is vomiting. You ready to stop yet?

My diet has been trending more and more toward a vegetarian and even vegan diet. Here's the problem, I've never even considered doing it normally so I don't know what I'm doing. I'm not trying to be vegetarian, it's just that all I want to eat are fruits and veggies. The real problem with this is that I'm not getting enough calories, not anywhere near enough. I woke up today so run down. I ate a huge lunch, a salad with tomatoes and black berries and poppyseed dressing, a big container of fruit with carmel dip and a hard boiled egg. It was a ton of food, but not a ton of calories. Besides the salad dressing and the quarter of the egg yolk that I ate, it didn't have any fat either. I was run down when I woke up, and by an hour after lunch I was light headed and dizzy. I left work and came home to try and feel better. I decided that I needed to eat, so first I had a piece of beef jerkey. I know it's on my no list, but I didn't have another easy source of protein right then so I just ate it. I also had wheat thins and cream cheese because it seemed like foods I haven't eaten in a while.

For the last hour I've felt like utter garbage. Finally, I had some water and it pushed me over the edge. I just completely emptied the contents of stomach and threw up all of that afternoon snack. Damnit body! There has to be some level of easy food that I can eat that's not a vegetable and doesn't make me throw up. I'm at 15 weeks, this is not how this is suppose to work. I'm frustrated and angry.

I'm going to try to have a burger from in and out for dinner. It's got some fresh veggies on it and a lot of protein and calories to boot. I'm SO hopeful that it stays down. I'm also hoping it makes me feel better because I'm sick of eating something that isn't a salad and feeling bad after.

And it's game night. Meaning my house is about to be full of people that are gathering to play a board game. We host this every week. I had to clean up my house while feeling exhausted and nauseous. And now I need to put on a happy face and play a game. At least the game is taboo and I can sit curled up on the couch with a blanket. That's a good game for me right now.

Ok, rant over.