Tuesday, March 3, 2015

No Make-up March

In years past I've banned together with Catholics everywhere and practiced Lent. I've given up chocolate, candy, caffeine, alcohol (I think?), and done projects over the 40 days.

This year, I've been busy in self discovery as is, so I decided not to participate. After all, I'm not religious. But then I started to get the itch for some personal growth. I wanted to challenge myself. So what did I come up with? No Make-up March.

Say what? Why on earth would I do No Make-up March? I'm a grown ass woman, who cares if I wear make-up?!

Truth be told, I don't exactly wear a lot of make-up. In fact, 90% of the time I only wear eyeliner. But man, I love my eyeliner. I actually feel weird without it. I actually feel uncomfortable about my own face. That's right, I'm 31 years old and I am more comfortable when my eyes are lined with some dark color.

So here we go, no make-up march. This is a discovery process for me. Am I going to get more comfortable as the days go on, seeing my unadorned face every day? Or am I going to hit the wall and freak out because I'm not pretty enough?

Oh, another goal this month! Take better pictures. Make happy faces, let my face have lines and wrinkles in photos! I had a friend show me a picture of a new girl he is dating a couple days ago and while I did think "hey, she's really pretty!" what I mostly noticed (and commented on) was that she looked like she was truly enjoying herself. She had unadulterated joy and excitement going on in her facial expression. I'm sure she could have posed in a more "modely" and therefore "beautiful" way, but she was vivacious with her open mouthed, squinty eyed, joyful grin!

This month I will stop putting my mask on and instead let it all out. Be excited, stop retaking pictures because I look flawed, enjoy my uniqueness.